Pengalaman Temuduga SasPen Universiti Sains Malaysia.

hello! assalamualaikum guys.

okay recently, i have been to an interview di Kuching. it is an admission interview for Universiti Sains Malaysia untuk Ijazah Sarjana Muda course Sastera dan Pendidikan. i was very very excited masa dapat tahu i got the interview. well, it was my teacher yang selalu syorkan masuk USM and galakkan beli pin untuk USM. for your information, pin USM tak sama dengan pin UPU, beli asing asing. and if i am not mistaken harganya is RM40.00. 

okay i wanna share my experience when i attend the interview. SasPen is my first choice masa isi USM. second was TESL, actually nak sangat ambil TESL but itsokay mungkin takda rezeki. i was very excited bila dapat tahu dapat untuk interview.

tempat interview tu dekat Majestic Riverside Hotel, Kuching. so yeah, i fly all over from Miri to Kuching semata-mata nak attend interview. that morning i was shaking and nervous tahap apa pun tak tahu. serious. masa susun sijil dalam fail punyalah bergegar. and then i kena interview sesi petang, pukul 2. masa nak bergerak pergi interview, punyalah nervous. serious. nervous gila. sampai suruh mak teman pergi pendaftaran. hahahahahaha. luckily yang sama interview semua friendly-friendly. well tak tanya nama diorang tapi masa tu ada 9 orang, yang sempat berkenalan 4 orang. dua orang lelaki, dua orang perempuan. kitaorang semua sama-sama hafal isu semasa, nama menteri adoi. kita orang semua yang tengah menunggu depan bilik interview nervous bukan main, tapi dengar bunyi panel tu ketawa ketawa dari dalam. lagilah kami semua nervous. and then bila sorang sorang keluar dari bilik interview, they all said...

"takpayah hafal tu semua, dia tak tanya pun"

hahahahahahahaha. and then semua pakat pakat tanya apa soalan yang dia tanya. my giliran is on the 8th, so aku yang kedua last.

and bila dah sampai giliran aku.... sumpah bergetar kaki ketuk pintu.

*ketuk pintu*

"boleh saya masuk?"
"ye. masuklah. siapa tu diluar? kami di dalam ni"

and i know since that yang panel tu semua funny funny lmfao.

mula-mula dia suruh buat ujian rabun warna. lepas tu, ujian baca petikan. the funny part is when petikan tu "beberapa ekor burung..." and disebabkan terlalu nervous, i tersasul baca "beberapa ORANG burung..." like seriously both of the interviewer ketawa macam nak mati.

antara soalan yang dia tanya are......

"okay dapat band berapa untuk MUET?"
"okay now please introduce yourself in english"
"subjek apa yang awak nak ajar"
"okay sekarang pergi ambil marker, tolong demo sikit macamana mengajar"
"dulu awak aktif dalam apa bidang apa?"
"kalau masuk USM nanti nak ambik unit beruniform apa"
"beri kami 5 kelebihan awak yang menyebabkan kami perlu memilih awak masuk USM"

hewwwwwwww kalau tahu itu soalan dia, baik takpayah study nama menteri kui kui kui. but interview was great and fun. hilang terus nervous semua. and other candidates pun friendly-friendly belaka.

loves, jane//xx

Healing.

this is for every brokenhearted girls out there. hey pretty, hang in there. i know how it feels. i know how painful you feels right now. i know exactly how it feels. it feels like your heart aches, literally. like some invisible hands are squeezing your heart and ripped it apart piece by piece. like theres a big stone being put on your chest and you're being drown in a cold icy water. you're screaming but theres no sounds, no one can hear you.  you cant breath, you cant even talk. moving on sounds very impossible to your ears. you feels like you're gonna stuck there, forever. hey honey, listen. its okay to cry, its okay to let it all out. crying doesnt mean that you're weak, it simply mean that you have been so strong for a long time. 

he is the one who left you, he left you like you werent worth it. and then he laugh at you. and you feels very very stupid. u wanna hate him for destroying you, but you cant. i know how it feels. you cant stop asking yourself why did he leave when you have tried doing everything to make him stay. you constantly ask yourself why cant you be good enough for him? you cried yourself to sleep every night. and some night, you need to hug a pillow so hard just to feel that you have a living body. you keep asking yourself what did you ever do that he had to break every little pieces of you. he destroyed you but you still forgive him, and whenever he comes back with his "i'm sorry, i miss you" all you ever do was opened up your hands again and hugged him. you feels like you cant be apart from him no matter how bad he did you. i know how it feels, every single detail of the pains. but pretty, please be strong. keep your head up and move on. i hate to break this to you, but he doesnt love you. not a single bit. because honey you see, people dont destroy things they love. i know this is very hard to swallow because at the back of your heart, you still hope he would love you again. oh how you're gonna miss the memories you had with him.

i know its gonna hurts. i know its gonna stings. i know its gonna break every single fiber in your body, but trust me pretty, its all gonna be worth it. every pain you've ever felt will worth it. when you finally let go everything. when you finally move on. it might takes time. a month? years? or maybe for the rest of your life but please trust me it all worth it in the end. you're gonna miss him, you will, no matter how long it will be. a part of you will always care about him, but trust me everything is gonna be okay. distract yourself, do things that you love. build up yourself. the world is so big and you have so much to offer. he didnt worth it. he didnt deserve a girl like you. you're too precious. he choose to be with that hoe, then let him be. let them be. you deserve better. you deserve a guy who knows how to treat you right. who wont let you go sleep upset. who will look at you like you're the prettiest girl on earth. who will love everything that you hate about yourself. who is sincere in love with you. one day, the one who broke you gonna look at you, and regret every single thing he ever did to you. the fact that he let go a girl like you. forget him, you're gonna sleep better, trust me. time will heals you. be patience. all the pains will turn to joys. try to forgive even when he is not sorry. you deserve to be happy. remember, He will replace what He takes with something better. sabarlah sayang, kebahagiaan mu akan datang juga. everything is gonna be okay.

dear you who i loved the most, thanks for every memories, the time that you made me feel like im the happiest girl on earth just because i got you. i am sorry i couldnt be the perfect girlfriend you're wanting. i tried. but maybe i will never be. thanks for all the pains you put me in, it makes me stronger. just once, i thought you were sincere with me, but i was wrong. you never were. but you were once everything i have ever wanted. i couldnt ask for more, you really are one of the best and the worse thing ever happened to me. i miss the old you, the one that i used to know. i dont really know who are you now. the one i have been in love with, was long gone dissappear. but you still are my favourite memories. i still love you, and will always care for you. but the fact that you're never gonna change, i just hope one day you will. we both will change. be better. who knows, ada jodoh jumpa lagi. when you're really sincere with me. when we're better for each other. 

loves, jane//xx